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March 31, 2011
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  • Mood: Suffering
  • Listening to: With or Without You - U2
  • Reading: NOTHING!
  • Watching: Grey's Anatomy
  • Playing: Word of Warcraft: Cataclysm
As the title says, course no more, not because I finished it, because I left it.
At first I was really into it, was really enjoying it and even found it funny that EVERY SINGLE PROFESSOR (who are actually retired professionals of the area) knows my father (who used to be a pilot) since they used to work with him, but then it became a HUGE burden; every time a new professor came in and he checked the list of students I would BEG that he didn't know my father, because this meant several things: they all would treat me more casually and not as the same as the other students, they would ALWAYS ask me to send their best regards to my father WITH WHOM I DON'T HAVE ANY CONTACT OR WHATSOEVER and didn't give a shit I was doing that course, I had a huge amount of pressure because since I am the daughter of Mac Intyre (yeah, that's my last name) they expected me to be as great as he was (not saying this because he is my father, but he was THE BEST) and I'm not even CLOSE of being as smart, capable, etc, etc as he is (I'm not kidding, I had professors coming up to me and telling me they expected great things about me); to all that, add huge family issues that I live through every single day, what happened? It started to get really difficult for me to study or pay attention in class (yeah, I'm too sensitive so problems affect me in such a way that I end up being useless).
This for one part, on the other, as the course progressed and we kept on seeing new things I started to question myself "Am I going to be able to do this?" (I swear if I read a comment saying that being a stewardess only means to serve people on a plane I will BITE YOUR HEAD OFF) and as we kept on seeing more subjects and such the answer in my head was NO... still I kept on going until I just couldn't do it anymore because my family issues kept me awake every single night and I wouldn't rest, I had to get up too early for my taste, travel like an hour and a half to downtown, and then walk more than 20 blocks per day... do this every day without resting and trust me, you'll want to kill somebody...
I could keep on going with more things that added to my decision, but I don't want to keep on ranting, this is all very fresh since it was today that I called and officially said "I'm out".
So, to the big disappointment of my "dear" mother, brother (and I'm sure some more) I'm again useless and don't know which way to go :dummy:
So... um, yeah that's basically it.
Surely you'll see more of me now that I'm with some free time on my hands :B
Let's end up this fucking journal with some happy news! U2'S FIRST SHOW IN ARGENTINA IS TOMORROW!!! AND IT'S THE ONE I'M GOING TO SEE!! I'm gonna go make the line REALLY early tomorrow in the morning since I want to be right in the front as I was in the last concert! :la: CAN'T WAIT!!! :faint:

:la: :dummy: :la: U2 WAS FUCKING UNBELIEVABLE!! I can't speak, I'm sore all over and I feel like I could sleep for a week! But it was all worth it to see them! To see my beautiful and beloved Bono!! I got to be inside the inner circle and followed :icongenzoman: 's advice (since he already saw them in Chile) and placed myself at the back of the cirlce, since there was a circular runway where they'd go through a lot... I WAS SO CLOSE TO THEM!! To have Bono, The Edge, Larry and Adam just a bit more than an arm away... I still can't believe it!! I want SO badly to see them again!! They're playing two more nights, but they are all sold out... aaaaaaaaaand I can't afford it :shakefist: The songs list was so unexpected!! They played songs that in a million years I thought they would play, they were plain amazing, unforgettable, unique... no doubt about it, THE BEST BAND IN THE WORLD!!! :la: :dummy: :la:
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:iconmiss-tetra:
~Miss-Tetra Apr 3, 2011  Student Digital Artist
I can imagine that would be tough :C Don't you dare get discouraged though! No matter what your family thinks, you are capable of doing whatever you want to do. You're an extremely talented person. Just see where life takes you, and keep your chin up :)
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~nightmaredude456 Mar 31, 2011  Hobbyist General Artist
:ohnoes: Lucky! I've only ever been to one concert in my life and it was a free sponsored contest done by our local radio station. We did get to see a few popular bands (if only popular in Mexico), but me and my friends were all the way in the back, sitting on the grass, getting sunburns :XD:
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~nightmaredude456 Mar 30, 2011  Hobbyist General Artist
Te comprendo completamente. Yo tampoco se que debo de hacer con mi vida :|
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:iconroxas-13:
Yeah, I agree with the other comments. If it was too uncomfortable, then maybe it was better that you quit the course. Do something you love! I remember reading one of your posts one time, I think it was a long time ago, that you wanted to be a singer? What about that? :D
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*EmmysPhotos Mar 29, 2011  Hobbyist Photographer
That sucks. That happened to me last year with tennis. I had this MASSIVE reputation for tennis and it put me to angst, because I was too pressured, and I wasn't able to play my pace...I always I had to play better than I actually was, and it wasn't fun last year. And, I felt like people were saying I wasn't actually good behind my back.

Expectations are hard, especially when you can't or don't feel like you're living up to them.
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:iconpeacethroughpower:
I really hate it when that happens, people ALWAYS tend to think the sons and daughters of great people are great as well yet they fail to realize the reason why they are great is because they had room to grow and fulfill that greatness whereas the sons and daughterr haven't even gotten to that point yet, I would be stressed out beyond measure as well and you have my greatest sympathies my friend, truly. :nod: I hope it all gets resolved as quick but smoothly as possible. :) I have a Youtube Account here www.youtube.com/user/HTankGlory feel free to add me as a friend. ^^
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:iconrosencruez:
Well at least you're still alive. xD
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:iconmaga-link:
~Maga-Link Apr 1, 2011  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
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Seriously?
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:iconjajwarehouse:
Don't stress over it because you absolutely did the right thing. If you really have your heart set on being a flight attendant, then maybe there are some schools elsewhere that you could attend. I for one could not think of being in that field myself; I have been on hundreds of flights, but have only seen a very few attendants that seemed happy with their job. You have lot's of talent, and this being an art site most people here would say you should do something in the art field, but I say do what your heart tells you and follow your dreams. For now, though, have crazy fun at the concert!
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*Split-Heart Mar 29, 2011  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Gosh! That sucks, but don't let such things put you down darling! Probably you could look around for a similiar sholastic profession, like travel agent or train guard. Actually I don't have real ideas for possible jobs for you, because I don't know what you'd like to do, but I am not bad at such stuff. Actually I am sitting within a group of women that look for jobs or special edjucations, aso. so I know how you feel darling. Whenever you need me, just call me baby! C:

Oh! I am just glad you have something to be happy about! U2 makes awesome music and I hope you will enjoy the concert and the upcomming "free" time you've got now!:hug: Relax now, take it easy and forget about those suckers! I luv you honey!!:hug: I am with you!
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