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Hello dearies! :dummy: :iconletmehugyouplz:

Well it's been a while since I posted a life update, so I thought it was about time I did one for those interested :meow:

First off, I have to talk about commissions :la: For so long I wondered if I should began taking commissions or not, having fights with my self-esteem about if I was going to be able to take on the challenge, and even more, if people was going to be understanding of my situation or not, and still take one from me.
Finally, I threw myself into the challenge, and soon enough, like I always do when I put myself in front of something my dear self-esteem makes me fear, I super-mega faced-palmed myself, because I found not only I was up for the challenge; I surprised even myself, seeing in action skills I though I didn't have, but also that I loved it, in spite of how slowly I have to go compared to how I used to be, and that all of you who had currently taken one, where more than understanding and concerned about my well-being while working.
I do love it, sitting and giving life to my take on your characters, even more when I get freedom to go crazy on designs, because it's then when I dive so deep in the sheet of paper, and my concentration gets so deep into it, that I lose track of time, and nothing else matters but that piece of paper and pencils in front of me; it keeps me distracted. And having a little extra cash is more than helpful; my condition doesn't allow me to have a regular job, and the condition itself is a big burden of expenses, so having money to cover a little of them, no matter how little, surely feels good and a bit like a load off the shoulders.
But as much as I love it, the fibromyalgia seems to get jealous or something, because it doesn't take much for her to start shouting to me, telling me to stop because she's such a spoiled brat, she has to point out how much drawing is hurting my whole spine. Sometimes the brat wins all the attention, and sometimes not, but she surely makes sure I have her in mind all the time. Which takes me to the next update: the fibroshit.

After a whole year of waiting to have all the paperwork done, then to see the doctor that would then send me to the fibromyalgia specialist, then waiting a looong time for the appointment to arrive while desperately trying to find something, ANYTHING that would make my life less miserable (it's no exaggeration), and with luck finding a Chinese acupuncturist, who helped immensely with the pain not only with needles, but also giving me the tools to have energy once again; all the while planning a wedding in Argentina while living in Barcelona; I can finally say, slowly but surely, things are moving forwards. 

When I finally had everything done and the doctors here established that I do have firbromyalgia (it was basically starting from scratch), I was told that because of the type of fibromyalgia I have, there isn't much to be done about the pain other than the things I'm already doing, but something seems to be evident; the ones at fault for all of this are my thyroids, but the bigger figure to blame is actually my own body. Somehow my own body it's killing my thyroids, and when they began to fail is that this whole thing got shoot the way it did. I'm already treating the hypothyroidism, but that doesn't make any good impact on what's already going on. The thing is, the most simple things and all what we take for granted (I did too, before it all changed), like riding the bus, taking a subway, doing laundry or making the grocery shopping, is a task that sometimes can seem and feel as impossible, so doing more of what I'm already doing is just not possible for me without guidance, since every time I try to do more exercise on my own, I end up hurting myself further, and end up without being able to do even more stuff. It's a constant struggle because you no longer know how your body will react, so it's no easy thing. 
But even so, reluctant as he was to giving me something to try to ease the pain, the doc gave me an opioid medicine that proved to be a bit helpful, so I recently had the dose duplicated and I'm currently trying to adjust to it. When I began to take it, it made me a bit groggy for days, and right now it's doing the exact same thing, so currently I'm not being able to make a significant progress on commishes because I feel like sleeping all the time and my head is completely fuzzy (all the reasons why the doc was reluctant), but I know I'll be able to shake this off in just a matter of days, I just need to be patient with myself, something that's not always so easy to do; guilt plays a big role in all of this, for not being able to do so much and in fear of being considered a complete slack. 

I have to say I consider myself to be very lucky, for living in a place where people in general know about this condition and show themselves to be helpful and respectful, but this doesn't happen everywhere, and to think of all those people who don't have the support of family, friends or sometimes, even the doctor himself, is just heartbreaking, because those are MANDATORY for a proper treatment. To many, this condition means to have somebody 24/7 around, to cook, clean, shop for them, etc, but since so many people consider them to be inventing all the symptoms, or don't consider them as handicapped (some truly are), is that there needs to be more awareness, because it's a real problem, a real disease, sickness, however you wish to call it, that way more people that you could think deal with every day.
I really would like to do something to create awareness about the subject, no matter how little, so with that in mind it is that I ask YOU, since it's you who needs the information; what is it you'd like to know about it? What kind of information would you find useful about the subject to you and society, family and friends? Anything that could help you understand us, I will be happy to share C:

Since I haven't been able to be around so much (because of what you just read), I will say it here, and know it to be truth for every comment and fave: THANK YOU SO MUCH FROM THE BOTTOM OF MY HEART! It's your support that keeps me going and doing art, and I can't find words to describe how thankful I feel for you :heart:

Be seeing ya! :iconbrohugplz: :heart:
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I have to say, after I read the whole journal post, I felt happy for you. :hug: Not for your condition apparently, which I'm already aware of. But because, even though something like this happened to you, you managed to stay positive and optimistic. And I think it's wonderful that you didn't let it get you down, or take you further from doing what you love. I admire your strength :) After all, you are very lucky to have your family and your friends to support you :love: I can't wait to see more art from you :heart: