How are you doing?
It's been a looooong time since I last took a moment to sit here and write about how I'm doing, but since I know some of you want to know about my health and such (which I thank and appreciate so much
), here I am C:
As you know/noticed, I got into a long hiatus that sadly will keep on going for a while, can't really say for how long; it's all up to my body, and regarding that, I have some updates for those interested, as well as a bit more
So! Where should I begin? There's so much to tell: more medicine added that actually helped in one way, beginning to move and exercise at a snail rate, finding out about a new disease in me, losing a most treasured four-legged friend, and the constant frustration of not being able to unwind with music, drawing and writing and getting rusty at it... hmmm, such nice choices!
Let's start with the artsy part of this update; this IS after all an art site Cx
Whelp, in my last journal I explained how I had to cancel commissions because the pain just wouldn't let me work; I would try to push myself to do it, but had to take a break every five minutes, which not only made my progress ridiculously slow, but most importantly, it never allowed myself to get connected and immersed in the zone and bubble we all need when drawing; that concentration that keeps you going the more you connect with your work, because, I dunno about you, but five minutes is not enough time to get hooked Q 3 Q And since I rather recently had made the huge change-for me- of drawing digitally instead of traditionally because it didn't hurt as much (nowadays, it's the only way I can continue drawing), I never got to feel completely used to the tablet; I had just arrived to that spot where I felt I was inking with quite a nice precision, so the more I didn't draw, the more I felt my practice on it going away
So in a desperate attempt to not let that happen, I began to throw random lines during five minutes, then taking a break, and so on; but still, this wasn't something my body allowed me to do very often, and when it did it wouldn't be for long. So it took me days to come up with plain sketches... DAYS. On a single SKETCH
can't put into words how much that bummed me, to the point that I got into a block and actually began to feel that art was slipping away from my body and mind. Couldn't come up with an image in my head to draw. Couldn't sing because my muscles just can't handle it (if you ever joined me on LS you know what I'm talking about Cx). Couldn't come up with how to continue my story writing. Cue for the blues please!
But I didn't give up!
I still kept on trying to throw some lines here and there, coming up eventually with a couple of fan art sketches and some of my OCs; some remained as doodles, some even began to get some inking here and there, but none really got anywhere because every time I kind of made some progress, I'd be like "Yes! I might actually be able to finish a picture!"
But my body would troll me and be like "Nope. You derp. You shall stay put in bed or the couch watching and playing things that will make you wanna draw"
and keep me away from the computer, so I felt like starting all over every time I picked the old tablet...
This all happened throughout spring and summer, until my in-laws recently came to visit for a bit over three weeks, and I simply focused on being with them as much as I could and enjoy the family love
But now that things are back to normal at home, it's time for me to go back to keep on trying. I WON'T GIVE UP ON MY ART DAMMIT!
So this is how things are going art-wise for me right now, and I'm wondering; since I haven't given you anything to see in so long, would you be interested in me posting those sketches? And if so, should I submit them one by one or in a batch? I have some Tharja from FEA, a bit of Zelda ALBW, a Jessica... a front/profile of my OCs Karina and Lyon that I began a long time ago and used now for practicing... What say you?!
That's it for now! I don't want to throw so much information at you at once. I'll make another journal to tell you about the rest
So tune in to see how the story continues in the next episode of "Magalink's Roller Coaster of Madness!"